You have just the same will, glow and passion as any acclaimed artist, artist, writer, inventor or athlete at any time. The only difference is that you (yet) have not been able to bring the glow to life enough to motivate yourself for everything you can and want to accomplish because you still allow negative emotions to block your very best qualities.
The secret lies in finding a way to express what you want in a way that suits you. You will find it as soon as you dare to be completely honest with yourself and trust your feeling of stomach. When you dare to do what you want instead of everything that others think you should do or that you yourself think you should do, then the motivation to blow up to full storm will also.